What Have You Done For Me Lately

I know that first, I did not complete the series of posts that began with I'll Take The Red Pill (But I'm Not Going Down Any Rabbit Hole Part 1). And second, my posts have been rather sporadic.
Well i, gonig to finish the series with my next few posts but i Have something on my mind.

Now I have been following @johnathanbudd and @ katiefreiling for the last several months and that is what has motivated me to post this blog, twitter and tie my facebook account to my tweets. That being the case let me say thanx to the two of you because the content that you are posting is so valuable to me that I can not truly express with words.

As I was riding home today(from Crooked River Ga. ) I was considering what I what I had accomplished this weekend. Well my intent was to spend some time in study, meditaion and prayer because my heart was intent on worshiping God woth my actions. What's funny is that I did just the opposite, and woudn't you know it i got distracted by me. Now if you didn't know i was on a camping trip with my son's scout troop, anyway I was feeling a little bit guilty about wanting to take some time for myself instead of focusing on my son's need or desire to be with me. Needless to say i took about half an hour one day for me. The rest of the time I focused on him (or so I thought). I am trying to create a life for my family. i am trying to create a life in which I don't spend my time being selfish and work long hours so that I can have a little money in my pocket. My concern is this, the entire time I have been working to build a life for my family I was being focused on me. I realized that I am not working for them and that working for me is not motivation enough for me to do what it takes to succeed. I need to think that in those times that I have been successful in my life, I just did and didn't care about how much money I had in my pocket. This weekend I did worship God in that I spent some time with my wonderful son and learned that he makes strange noises that sound like a muppet. That, he is silly and funny and is like me in that he only wants to enjoy life. In this revelation I find that spending time with my wife and kids is what I want to do. I want to know what they like what they love.


I don't ever want to have a conversation with any of them where they ask me what have you done for me I want them to know that in my provision for them i am able to show them my love. because I was willing to take some time away from them in order that I can create a life in which my time is my own to control.